Arizona. F*&$ YOU

So i read the newspaper this morning and guess what it said. That Utah is starting to write its own bill using Arizona's as influence. What the hell Utah, don't you know that arizona's bill is racist, oppressive, unjust and just promotes ignorance and hate????? The freaking federal government might launch a lawsuit against it!!!! Like seriously, any one with a heavy accent or darker skin is going to get constantly questioned by the police. AND the police already racial profiles and they probably have a couple enemies they'd like to get rid of. Gosh i cant even believe such a legislation could be passed.. Oh wait I can, when old white men are running things...
Psh... Like what kind of law is that..
"if we suspect that you may be illegal, we have a right to ask for your papers and documentation and if you don't have anything you get deported".... OK.. so is everyone supposed to start wearing their citizenship status on our sleeves now?? are we going to resort to yellow stars? really...
UGGGHHHH. so frustrating. Like seriously whats these people's problems.. Yea there are mexican gangs, yea their are rapists and murderers. but guess what america, there are WHITE gangs, WHITE rapists, WHITE murderers, WHITE people who take advantage of welfare, and WHITE trash. Get over it and stop blaming other races!!!!

and here's another thing. Maybe people would come in legally if they didn't have to pay thousands of dollars or wait in line for forty years. Excuse me if they can't wait that long enough when their family is poor and suffering and the corrupt police are out to kill you. Why is it that cubans who flee to america aren't illegal but everyone else is?? These people obviously respect our country enough to be able to want to come here and get a better life. And instead of appreciating this we whine and hate these people.

So whatever arizona,
lets see how long this bill holds up.
Because even if they risk questioning by the police it doesn't mean its going to stop them. Many have risked so much more.

Gosh i just wanna punch those stupid legislators in the face.

So.... its like midnight

I was thinking. I used to really really really like Linkin Park. I listened to them everyday. So today on youtube I went into a music video phase and stalked every band i used to like and still like. And I think I will always love this phrase:
When my time comes, forget the wrongs that i've done
help me leave behind some reason to be missed
don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest.
Yes! you know?? Why do people resent you, and always put everything that you've ever done wrong always in your face? We are all people, we are all sinners, we all make mistakes. Why is it so hard??
I do it too. I don't forget the people who have hurt me in the past. But I've finally forgiven. It took a while but yes, I no longer hold grudges against those who betrayed me. I just avoid them now.
Because everyone makes mistakes. I have made some big mistakes, i've hurt people I love. But I regret it, and i hate that part of myself. I hate the things that i've done and i won't ever do them again. I am moving on though. I am.
I decided that i really enjoy other people's drama. I like knowing people's business. I hope that doesn't make me a bad person. It's not like i go and tell everyone and gossip or anything. I just like knowing that i'm not the only one with a screwed up life. And you know what else I like? relationship statuses.
I really get a kick out of seeing who is together, who is engaged, and who is single. Because it's interesting. It makes you wonder. How did they meet? what do they see in each other?? Why would he date her..she's a massive bitch?
So interesting.
People are just so complex. I love it.

i'm having trouble getting to sleep. I just want to snap my fingers and be in bed all ready. My face washed, teeth brushed, bladder emptied, pajamas on and ready to dream.

grown up.

I think im grown up. but apparently im not. because i complain about things and dont like it when things dont go my way..
I don't know why i complain so much. I think its because its easier to complain than to say something stupid. I think I complain because i dont know how to start other conversations. and if i do complain i should be able to say whatever i want to the people i trust most. because if i can't, then what's the point you know??
But i guess i should grow up. cause being negative just makes bad energy.
I don't know whats up with me. I just have this stupid fear of being annoying to people.
I don't want people to hate me or say that im annoying. I don't wanna be ditched for someone else. When I see friends that i've had for a long time hang out with so many people all the time, and then I come and they treat me like crap...how am i supposed to feel? I get jealous you know. Like what do these people have that i don't have? Is it really just because im annoying and negative? I think sometimes i do deserve a little respect. Maybe i wouldn't be negative if people would treat me right and listen to what i have to say without tagging me as annoying and nagging.
gaaa. i have no patience for people at all. and then i start to judge them because I then get annoyed.

i shouldn't have to be approved by everyone else.
I just need to be like i used to. Happy, funny, and independent.

liberals/conservatives

I swear if i hear "poor people are poor because they are lazy and dont take any action to improve their condition" in any variety or similar phrase one more time i will bust a cap.
Like are you really that blind and ignorant????
I know for a fact that that notion is not true. there are textbooks and legitimate facts against that.
Jesus would never say that. Jesus would help the poor. So why cant the government help the poor conservatives??? and why is higher taxes for the rich a bad thing???
They should be paying more taxes not less. Who gives a crap if they wont be able to have six yachts.
Quit being so gosh dang greedy!!!!!!!
we should have had universal health care decades ago!!!!! and i think its about time the government starts regulating all those greedy capitalistic private companies that take advantage of everyone.
Ever heard of credit card debt collectors and that nasty ordeal???
We need regulation!!!
Everyone should be entitled to quality education and quality health care no matter what!

Once upon time there was a girl named Kendra.

Two years ago she was a completely different person.
She was naive, slightly depressed, brainwashed, angry, and wierd :)
Now she is angry, loved, hopeful, and homesick!

yay for change!!!!

I bought a cool bracelet at this store called ten thousand villages which is a non profit organization yadadyaydadd... and now i cant find it. :( and it makes me really sad.
That happens to me all the time. things just disappear i swear!!!
Everybody says i misplace it, which is true sometimes but a lot of times i cant ever ever find!
take two years ago for example.
I had this really really cool samsung mp3 player. and then one day i couldnt find it anywhere and i haven't found it since!!! and i've moved furniture, cleaned the house, looked behind walls...and nothing!!!
daaaannnnggggggggg...

weeether.

let me dictate to you how bipolar salt lake city is.
Yesterday, or should i say the day before, it snowed alll day. like literally did not stop.
the next day everything was covered in snow.
Today, no snow. Everything is gone and its Sunny.
before it snowed it was sunny to the point i almost didn't have to wear a sweater.
the day before that it snowed, hailed, rained, and was sunny all in the span of twenty minutes.
I HATE YOU WEATHER!!!
Its APRIL!!
be hot already!!!
shhhhhiiii!!!