i. love. spain.

and i don't want too leeeaaveee! :(

Sometimes I wish I could have multiple lives. I could live in America, and live in Spain at the same time and it would be awesome!
It kind of freaks me out that there is a whole world out there and so many things to see!
The only problem with me is that when I see something new I get too attached and I want to stay.
I want to stay in Spain! But I want to stay in America! I want to live in France and in Japan and everywhere!
:( booo!!!! too bad I haven't figured out how to teleport yet.
It's hard saying goodbye. I had to say goodbye to my friends twice because I thought i was leaving one day, and ended up leaving the next.
I hate it.
goodbyes suck. hellos are much much better :)

sexy spaniards

I feel like posting again :)
Why are spaniards so damn sexy?

Everywhere I go I see couples making out in the middle of the street and I think to myself.."I want to be that passionate and romantic!"
Too bad I'm horrible at expressing any emotion besides anger.

Im so good at being angry it's not even funny. well. a little haha

Even though Danny and I have been together for three years, i'm still a sucker for PDA. I don't even kiss him in front of my family.

It just feels like everyone's watching me and then they are going to embarrass me. I should get over it. Dammit I want to be in the moment and kiss Danny right in the middle of the street. It doesn't matter who is there or what's going on!!

I want a notebook scene where it's raining and we just give in! Who cares if we get wet and get hypothermia! I want our love life to be like a freaking movie!

I want to many things. I'm a coveter.

People bug.

I wish I could be taken as I am. That people would just accept me. I'm tired of having to change who I am, or watch what I do or say so other people wont get offended. Seriously, I put up with people's crap all the time, why can't they put up with mine?
I feel like I'm always compromising myself for everyone else, and nobody gives me the same courtesy.
It's really irritating when someone is talking to me, and just because I dont reply with a huge ass smile on my face, they ask me why I have an attitude. I'm not angry people! I'm just talking! I don't have an attitude! Im just blunt. If I'm not excited, I don't pretend. Ok?

Right now I really am angry though. haha

Why do people bug!!!!

I'm in Spain right now. It's really nice to get away from everyone. Yes, I love and miss Danny and my friends but I just need a break. Like bad. People in Spain understand me. I think it's because I have a European soul. Stupid americans need to get with the program of how I awesome I am!

I really need to start remembering I have a blog. I should use it to release my stress more.
I thought I was going crazy for a second.

Don't care to title

Isn't it funny how we start these things and then forget about them?

Well, I'm not going to catch things up. I've learned that lesson with journals. I'll buy a journal, write in it, then forget for a bunch of months...then find myself trying to cram in what happened in those months. you know all the important stuff.
I'm not going to do that anymore.
I'm just going to start at the present and future. Trying to remember and condense the past is way too much work for a lazy person like me.

Here I am. Just me. On my bed, listening to enrique. He's so sexy :)
I've really gotten into wearing fuzzy socks. and yoga. It makes me feel so in tune with the universe and stretchy! definitely a plus. I think my favorite pose has got to be crow and child's pose. crow because its hard and I can actually do it, and child's pose cause it stretches my hips :)

I'm growing my hair long again. It starting to remind me of how I used to be when my hair was long. I was a young and innocent random girl. probably more accurately described as weird. I kissed statues and danced around in superman clothes with makeup all over my face.

I like to think that I still got it. You know, acting like a kid and not caring. Sometimes I feel like its frowned upon. But then again, I think it takes courage to act like a child and not care what others think. There are times to be serious, and then there are times where I just need to let go. I'll just drive myself crazy if i don't.