annoyed

im so sick of hearing about haiti.
i get it already ok.
im so sick of hearing about the olympics.
they are boring and i wont watch them.
im so sick of hearing about the mormon religion.
i was mormon. i know. and i don't care. so everybody stop whining about everything.
im sick of it being cold.
i want to get some sun already my skin is transparent.
im sick of school
i want to go to spring break
im sick of always being broke and worrying about money
im sick of stupid people who act stupid and like the know more than you.



i felt like complaining.

wa. get over it.

followers

i think its funny how i still post blogs as if more than one person is reading them. when in reality i have one follower :)

i love you.

people throw this phrase around like it meant nothing.
well guess what. it means alot.
i know what happens when its thrown too early.
thats why i waited a while. till i knew for sure.
I know i'm in love.
and love is more than gushy feelings. its so much more than that.
we've been through thick and thin, we've had to be apart from each other.
i love him :) and he loves me:)
and i know the difference between love and lust and infatuation.
and i just wanted to share this little thought.
i hope that young people in relationships realize the true meaning behind powerful three words.

Valentine's day :D

yesterday was vday.
yay.
i made myself cute and then went to breakfast with danny at school.
then we went to the mall but first we waited for a bus for like an hour cause its too far to walk the whole way. it was cute cuz the whole time he was like i feel like a douche and bla bla cuz we were taking the bus. i was like awwwwwww.
so we got to the mall and went to the planetarium which is a pretty cool place dude. then we went to california pizza kitchen and had a greek pizza which was goooo
then we went to see wolfman which was scary and reminded me of an eightees horror film. then we went home and an hour later we went to olive garden my favorite place ever and i finished my whole plate!!!!
YAYAYYYYY
that was a fun day :D

Movies.

So yesterday while danny was at a jazz laker game with his roommate i watched three movies.

10 things I hate about you, american pie 2, and she's all that on netflix.

let me just say that i will watch 10 things i hate about you a million times because heath ledger is freakin sexxiii in that movie. and i mean SEXIII!!!

oof.

like seriously i was in awe the whole time.

plus he's like this sentimental bad boy which is like every girl's fantasy haha

anyways. it sucked being alone all day yesterday. :(

but danny looked like a g with the shirt i made him:)

hells yea i got skillz.

i watch so many movies its ridiculous.

i think the reason why i love them so much is because you get to see so many different things and any idea is possible.

and movies are even better when there's nice eye candy;)

my favorite

Ever since I was young I knew that I wanted to travel and to see the world. i've always loved the mountains and nature. It's a feeling that I can't explain. Good thing i'm spanish and i've had the opportunity to go there. Everything I see just blows my mind. Architecture, art, there are so many different kinds, so many things to see in this life. I hope that God will grant me life to see enough. this spring break i hope to be able to do one of my favorite things ever. go to Zions, be outside, and baske in the glorious sun. I'm thankful for all the beauty and wonders in the world that we have surrounding us.

white people.

I read a comment on facebook that really pissed me off.
It was about how we should have a white history month or a white parade or tribute to white entertainment.
stupidity.
stupidity.
stupidity.
stupidity.
I'm going to be frank. This country is a white america.
Yes, there are minorities in this country that get somewhat represented.
but still, look at this country for real.
When our country was first established, liberty and equality for all really meant liberty and equality for the white male. African-Americans weren't represented, they weren't even considered american.
see that comment just pissed me off because that person did not realize that this country basically has white history month every month excluding like what, three?
Look at the history books, people purposefully have to put in black history and other minorities in there because they aren't represented. Years ago, there wasn't even a black person in the history books.
The thing about it is white people are what rule america, it has only been until 2010 that we have had a black president.
Colleges have to look for diversity because most people that go to college are WHITE.
UGHHH!!!
white people were not slaves, white people did not get there civil rights taken away and hosed down by firehoses, white people do not experience extreme police brutality like minorities do, white people do not have to work harder than other minorities.
a black person, hispanic person, or any other minority has to deal with judgment everyday.
They have to work twice as hard to be accepted.
and when a black person or hispanic person actually does do something amazing, they get attention for it, because apparently its not common for a minority to actually be successful.
My skin may not be dark, but i would consider myself more hispanic than white anyday.
in conclusion:
to say that white people need a month is ridiculous, these ignorant people who believe they are being underrepresented need to take a real close look at their country, their history books and the privileges they have that others don't.

Peggy Mcintosh made a huge study about white privilege and made a list of the privileges white people have.
http://http://www.case.edu/president/aaction/UnpackingTheKnapsack.pdf
here are a few:
I can talk with my mouth full and not have people put this down due to my color

Whether I use checks, credit cards, or cash, I can count on my skin color not to work against the appearance of financial reliability

If a traffic cop pulls me over or the IRS audits my tax return, I can be sure that I haven't been singled out because of my race

I am never asked to speak for all the people in my racial group.



Ignorance is the reason it took more than a century to end slavery.

stupid people

stupid people are stupid when they don't do the things they are supposed to do like send me photos and articles before the specified deadline.
Like seriously do you not understand that i don't want to be waiting for you to turn in these things all day?
like seriously i could finish the whole newspaper in a day if i had everything in!!!!!
=_= curse you all.
and one more thing.
I HATE walking to my dorm after five.
its dark outside and i don't wanna get raped.
thank you for your time.

woot

so today i did my fafsa...YAYYYYYY!!! lets hope i get more money than last year:)

the good thing about it was that they changed the layout to make it more easier to do! YAYYYY!

Today me and danny walked around to find a yellow tee cuz he's going to the lakers game wednesday.

pretty sure i made the sickest logo on that yellow tee :) im so talented with art!

it reminded me of when i made left 4 dead tshirts a long long time ago.

anywayssss.....

can't wait for valentine's day :) it will be specialll... like that picture ^^^^^^^^^^^^^

also can't wait for spring break so i can see my girls and baske in the heat woof.

i work tomorrow :( which means for two full days i'll be invisible.

i do love my job though!

i'm always hungry man. and our freaking cafeteria closes on seven on weekends so im craving food and i can't eat crap :(

mamaaaaaaaa!!!

all by myself.

so today is free laser tag for everyone at westminster, only thing is you need transportation to get there so me and danny had to find a ride. We ended up not being able to find a ride so we were just in his room, when his roommate said there was room for one more person, i said go ahead and go. i mean i can't not let him go do something fun just cause i can't go. i'm with him all the time. so i let him go. Now im in his room all by myself. blahhhgh.
im such a good girlfriend :)
I wish i had friends here. that were girls.
so that i could go hang out with them when i can't with danny.
It sucks. i wish amy lived up here lol.
:)
I'm in his room cuz my room has no computer :/ still with hp.
i just had oreos and milkyyy.
my favorite!
i don't know what im gonna do for two hours, probably watch a movie haha.
You know what i was thinking.
i'm scared to be an independent grown up,.
i don't know how to do anything!!! i was so scared just shipping a package in the mail!
i'm terrified of forgetting to do something im supposed to document wise...and insurance? bleggghh.
Fafsa is freaking scaring me now too!!!
i worry too much.
but seriously, last night i had a dream that danny died. I was like wtf!! that better not happen:(
and then i get to thinking, what if i got cancer? what if danny got cancer? what if i can never have kids? what if what if what if.
Paranoia.
it keeps me up every night.
I get scared that something evil is waiting to possess me. and thoughts just pop into my head. scary faces. my ears start hearing things. ever since i was 14.
im just scared that something is going to mess up the good feelings and choices that i have and make.
like i am not supposed to deserve anything.
geez. i think i have a psychological disease.