all by myself.

so today is free laser tag for everyone at westminster, only thing is you need transportation to get there so me and danny had to find a ride. We ended up not being able to find a ride so we were just in his room, when his roommate said there was room for one more person, i said go ahead and go. i mean i can't not let him go do something fun just cause i can't go. i'm with him all the time. so i let him go. Now im in his room all by myself. blahhhgh.
im such a good girlfriend :)
I wish i had friends here. that were girls.
so that i could go hang out with them when i can't with danny.
It sucks. i wish amy lived up here lol.
:)
I'm in his room cuz my room has no computer :/ still with hp.
i just had oreos and milkyyy.
my favorite!
i don't know what im gonna do for two hours, probably watch a movie haha.
You know what i was thinking.
i'm scared to be an independent grown up,.
i don't know how to do anything!!! i was so scared just shipping a package in the mail!
i'm terrified of forgetting to do something im supposed to document wise...and insurance? bleggghh.
Fafsa is freaking scaring me now too!!!
i worry too much.
but seriously, last night i had a dream that danny died. I was like wtf!! that better not happen:(
and then i get to thinking, what if i got cancer? what if danny got cancer? what if i can never have kids? what if what if what if.
Paranoia.
it keeps me up every night.
I get scared that something evil is waiting to possess me. and thoughts just pop into my head. scary faces. my ears start hearing things. ever since i was 14.
im just scared that something is going to mess up the good feelings and choices that i have and make.
like i am not supposed to deserve anything.
geez. i think i have a psychological disease.